8.15.2011

sunflower


along away
through yellow petals traced with the scent
of summer grass,
my face in it
and falling through
to roots of trees and other things…
a small cascade, if there’s such a place,
is my escape
and last autumn's leaves
impress the sun around the water’s face.



6.16.2011

Song of Isaiah

This melody has been swimming in my head today, applying to everything, as the Word of God is wont to do... I grew up in an LCMS congregation, singing hymns and psalms and liturgy, and many of them have stuck with me. I thank God. I have fallen in love with the melodies that carry Scripture from the pages of the Bible into the air from the pipes of the organ and the lips of my brothers and sisters in Christ, and every so often they play back, sometimes in my own young voice. Today was one of those times.  

This particular refrain comes from an arrangement of Psalm 31 and a song of Isaiah (12:2-9). The melody that has stuck with me is the one printed in the CW, p. 77...


Surely it is God who saves me;
I will trust in him and not be afraid.
For the Lord is my stronghold and my sure defense,
and he will be my Savior.



5.11.2011

overcast


overcast isn’t over anything.
it’s perfect.
a shade of dark that accentuates the green under my boots.
constant conversation in the air entreats my silence.
but there is music and narration in my mind,
atop my footsteps,
in my place,
because i am invisible here...


5.01.2011

Psalm 121

I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
The Lord watches over you—
the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
The Lord will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
the Lord will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

4.30.2011


looking at things, more things, and pictures of things
has closed my eyes to looking into
for a time,
but the thought, that acknowledgement, has been the transition
back to awareness
of myself, of what is beautiful, of what is valuable,
of what is desirable.
and my memory sings and sings…

“oh be careful little eyes what you see.
be careful little eyes what you see…”

…be careful little heart what you want,
for your desire is your worth,
and your Father has paid so much for you,
so much,
because he loves you.

the lines on his hands must be the most beautiful—
the hands that formed the dry clay;
that hold the weary when they walk, for we must walk;
that wrote upon our hearts his presence and his will.
those lines…
what beauty, what mercy, what love.

at these thoughts, the significance of my physical eyes subsides
and that of my soul’s sight rises to the welcome task of recognizing
the Savior’s face, the Father’s hands, the Spirit’s voice,
and then I see
what I must see.

oh be careful…

oh be full of care…

4.15.2011

reflections


is it late enough for you to come climbing in
through cracks and quiet hallways?
dark enough, and late?

***
what is the cloth that covers eyes when mem’ry overtakes?
a film, a picture, clear as sight, and yet unseen,
so that the slightest twitch of your finger
means to your mother that you felt the wind,
when really, you felt two years ago when you worked so hard to do so well,
and he put his arms around you to reassure you that it was not in vain;
you felt his heart,
in his words and in his touch,
not the wind.

the veins that show on leaves against the sun
are invisible though vibrant as a backdrop to a tear against skin
made warm and red with sincerity and love.
the stem between your fingers means to your sister and to your brother
that you are savoring life,
you are cherishing light
in your mind you are,
but you instead hold his face in your hands
and feel his warmth and sweat,
a testament no need for proof to the powerful hand of our God.
that warmth rests around your hopes
and cradles them like babes whose eyes are closed in sleep.

***
you are absent here, replaced by a distant cousin,
one less distinctive and distinguishing than you
where you lay meaning,
she is the meaning you try to encapsulate.
where you evoke sentiment,
she is the sentiment that quivers on their lips,
and where you meet
is where we learn how to hold on
and what to hold,
for a word without meaning still speaks,
and a meaning without a word still breathes.

3.18.2011

with love for those who can't help their red skin


You’re rosy in Mayare you mine?
Are you mine? Walk this way.
When we look off the edge of the bridge,
we can tell it’s still raining,
but we know it won’t stay...

Cast from clothing, our legs hanging down from a pier,
quite the pair of true lovers we look from afar.
Can’t stand still or sit still or be still and still,
it’s the motion that turns me to stillness inside…

Wait one afternoon, or two hours, but don’t hold your breath.
A fresh scent lingers on the deck from leaves left…
When the sun dies down, we know it’s time.
Are you mine?
You are mine…

3.16.2011


Her tangled mass of long, thin hair
caught the wind and held it and they played,
like red yarn holds kittens
whose whole life in a moment is to stare and paw, fixated.
The concrete of the cracking farm wall beneath her feet
looked like Time giving all his strength to help her stand
as she walked and talked,
and in her smile, the Sun…

Each memory matters as much to me as my lungs
to keep me breathing,
to keep me alive.
She was my poetry child,
her movements words that I have taken down
on the wrinkled lines of my brain.
She gave me pages filled with the trees and sky—
how she captured the sky—
and the grass that once touched her face…
Still so distinct from any other grass in the world.

Taken down from her hill by the grayest cloud,
she sleeps and keeps a constant watch on the stars.
Ten thousand, twenty thousand, thirty thousand…
never through, her fragile fingers glow against the blue of twilight.
My light…

When I return to the wall on afternoons that keep no name,
I dust the cracks with weeds and wonder
if the wind can recognize what she inherited from me—
soft skin, a focused brow,
a small brown freckle on her left ear…
Sometimes it nods or strokes or speaks of these things,
but most often of her warmth
in words so softly spoken I can’t trace their origin;
of a disposition so mild, in voice and in pen,
yet so powerful that it traveled backwards,
from her into me.
We are free.