3.18.2011

with love for those who can't help their red skin


You’re rosy in Mayare you mine?
Are you mine? Walk this way.
When we look off the edge of the bridge,
we can tell it’s still raining,
but we know it won’t stay...

Cast from clothing, our legs hanging down from a pier,
quite the pair of true lovers we look from afar.
Can’t stand still or sit still or be still and still,
it’s the motion that turns me to stillness inside…

Wait one afternoon, or two hours, but don’t hold your breath.
A fresh scent lingers on the deck from leaves left…
When the sun dies down, we know it’s time.
Are you mine?
You are mine…

3.16.2011


Her tangled mass of long, thin hair
caught the wind and held it and they played,
like red yarn holds kittens
whose whole life in a moment is to stare and paw, fixated.
The concrete of the cracking farm wall beneath her feet
looked like Time giving all his strength to help her stand
as she walked and talked,
and in her smile, the Sun…

Each memory matters as much to me as my lungs
to keep me breathing,
to keep me alive.
She was my poetry child,
her movements words that I have taken down
on the wrinkled lines of my brain.
She gave me pages filled with the trees and sky—
how she captured the sky—
and the grass that once touched her face…
Still so distinct from any other grass in the world.

Taken down from her hill by the grayest cloud,
she sleeps and keeps a constant watch on the stars.
Ten thousand, twenty thousand, thirty thousand…
never through, her fragile fingers glow against the blue of twilight.
My light…

When I return to the wall on afternoons that keep no name,
I dust the cracks with weeds and wonder
if the wind can recognize what she inherited from me—
soft skin, a focused brow,
a small brown freckle on her left ear…
Sometimes it nods or strokes or speaks of these things,
but most often of her warmth
in words so softly spoken I can’t trace their origin;
of a disposition so mild, in voice and in pen,
yet so powerful that it traveled backwards,
from her into me.
We are free.

11.10.2010

Psalm 16


I've been on a kind of roller coaster this semester, especially the past few weeks. God always seems to put the right words in the right place at the right time. In His Word we rest secure.

Psalm 16

“Keep me safe, O God,
for in you I take refuge.

I said to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
apart from you I have no good thing.”
As for the saints who are in the land,
they are the glorious ones in whome is all my delight.
The sorrows of those will increase
who run after other gods,
I will not pour out their libations of blood
or take up their names on my lips.

Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup;
you have made my lot secure.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
surely I have a delightful inheritance.

I will praise the Lord, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
I have set the Lord always before me.
Because he is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken.

Therefore my heart is glad and my toungue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure,
because you will not abandon me to the grave,
nor will you let your Holy One see decay.
You have made known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand."

8.20.2010

First Fall

It has been a long while since I've posted... too long. July completely escaped me, and August is about to do the same. I confess I have not kept up on my poetry (on or off this blog) as I would have liked... I give you these words to usher in the Fall and the many changes that come with it...

First Fall

The tree outside my window has begun to change,
its red face turned to the new sun,
the rest looking west
remembering summer.
I knew him when he was small,
and he knew me,
the little one trudging the yard
    in search of Easter eggs or a favorite kitten.
And then I grew up on the other side of the house.
This is our first Fall together,
and I will have to leave him for other trees,
trees that say little to me but "We are here."
I'll return when his branches are bare
    and the shadow he casts has atrophied to a whisper.
He will wake me,
and we will remember.

6.22.2010

free

(the portions in quotation marks are taken from a poem by my best friend.)


“barefoot and crazy
but mostly free,”
i discuss with myself
the me that i wish i still knew.
she was contemplative, focused—
i am scatterbrained and distracted.
she was innocent, graceful—
i am worn and bear witness,
self-conscious and uneasy.
a battleground between confidence and self-doubt,
between soaking it all in and articulating the beauty before me,
between knowing what i have learned to know, and learning what i’m told i should.
my mind wanders with my feet to the field,
to distant memories brought close by the familiar sounds
and sights of home.
the sun keeps his promise
to rise and set as he did when we were children,
but now the grass grows shorter
and in different places,
my secret places gone or changed.
i try to fit regardless, and i find only mild satisfaction.
what is this desire?

i scold myself for hiding here,
for waiting as the days pass, as the light drifts
and looks in on me in my quietude.
have i abandoned freedom for fear?
(this question has changed me…)
for fear that i must keep my freedom?
that it is somehow i who must portion off some days to be free
and others to be full, filled by obligations and “the rest”?
we cannot live as we once did,
and yet we must.
we cannot forget the feeling of dirt and sand and grass and stone beneath our feet.
“we are free, to the same extent we are fearless.”
they are bound up in each other,
the freedom to fly and the fear of the fall.
they direct our steps,
sometimes careful, sometimes reckless.
both can result in injury,
one results in joy despite pain.

in my hands, in my feet
i remember beauty the way it should be.

“barefoot, be free.”

5.29.2010

Imagine

I believe that a person must always hold on to her imagination. No matter where she goes or when she gets there, she must always see beauty in the things around her and be reminded that her world is, at least in part, what she would make of it. I think one is blessed with a better imagination if she believes that the Creator is the source of all of these beautiful things. And with faith in Him, she may also see and acknowledge that this beauty has been tainted. Imagination encompasses more than beauty. Indeed the fear and pain and sorry of the world contriute to its greatness as well as does the majesty of life. May we ever lok with both eyes open.








5.27.2010

be still, my soul

i thought about it as we sang those words...
the thought that it is actually my soul that keeps me still
under the cross of grief or pain,
rather than encouragement from me
that keeps her sane.
and these words came...


a conversation with my soul

she sings out in hymns of praise
and it is the glow of the glory of God
that she brings to my face.
she is mine,
and my salvation is found in the fact that we hold fast
to the love of Christ.
oh faith!
oh soul!
the echoes of the waves upon the walls--
notes struck,
notes bowed,
heads bowed and voices lifted to our God...

internal shouts burst forth,
she cannot be contained;
for love she knows,
by love she's owned,
and here that love is named:

ah dearest Jesus.
Lord, abide with us.
your hands have bled,
your words have fed
our hearts and heav'nly hopes.


she is passionate
and she cries when she sees the Lord behind closed eyes,
imagines his feet coming towards her,
she looks down,
she lies down,
but here she's lifted up.
everything that is gentle and good in the world
is here.

"I am the good shepherd.
the good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep."

though in the dark,
she can't make out his face,
she thinks of white,
of warmth,
of song and light and grace.
and she cries when she sees the Lord behind closed eyes...


open them.
she tells me like it's easy.
open them
and see before you

"... the Sun of life divine
through passing clouds shall but more brightly shine."